Turning Point

Tonight was the first time that I realized that the man that I have shared my life and my world, does not touch my heart the way he should. At 22, I want a love that is mature, unwavering, and defiant against all others. I sometimes wonder if there is such a man on this earth and sometime wonder ( without lustful eyes) if that man that just past was the one who God intended for me. My two children (ages 4 yrs old and 5 months) deserve a household filled with love. And though I am an intelligent woman, I sometime allow myself to be blind-sighted by the admiration that I have for this man. So my question for myself is.... Am I missing out of the life that I want because I'm afraid to left go?